Happy Service Learning cum Racial Harmony Day.Since did my service learning on saturday already, i had a day off for the week and headed back to nanhua with some fellow saints and kjw cos it was NJ's college day too.

Headed back and visited many teachers, mdm poon, mdm yong, ms yvonne lim and lim pei shi etc etc. Since its racial harmony day, many teachers also dressed up in their traditional clothings thingy, like theres exceptionally more this year.Even mr teoh was in a malay costume! Unlike other teachers, he didnt change out of it after photo taking which was frigging cool. Maybe having a child would change everything in your life. Remember last time foo lao shi say when mr teoh first came into nanhua he didnt smile that much, then after he got married and had a kid, he began to smile more often. Coolio. And he still has that golden smile when he takes photos.

Played basketball pretty much of the time, sitting down to chat when im tired. Seeing the students have breaks in the canteen was kinda cool man. Nanhua has one of the funkiest canteen.Like seriously. E.g, the yongtaufoo stall is damn funny. It still gives so much noodles for the 五毛粗米粉. Ok i have no idea whether i wrote it correctly, but anyway they give so much noodles so much so i dont see how they can earn.And then theres also the famous western stall, where the name is nothing but a scam. It actully sells stuff like fan cai la, like la jiao yu, mushrooms cooked in a non-western way.Not that anyone's complaining, in fact, everyone loves it.

Left at like 3.30. Somehow i feel terrible after visiting nanhua. I dont know how i was arranging my thoughts and stuff, it somehow linked to how much stress i was creating for myself.Like im currently loathing tomorrow cos of guitar starting at like 5 and im dismissed at 1.30 like that? argh. Having left nanhua for 7 months, i still feel like i've left some stuff behind that i didnt manage to accomplish.Somehow. Results? Nah, cant be, i've got wonderful teachers who taught me in my last year and im really sure me getting 10-2 points was purely my fault for not clarifying things and stuff. Thats kinda a bit no link to my current link but somehow it all stacks up with all my other worries and piles up onto my emotions. I've made a lot of wrong decisions in my life, some i've definitely regretted, some i just cant seem to understand and others just, i dont know, left some kind of imprint on me displaced from any of the categories.

I've made a lot of major decisions too, risking common tests for cibtc, running for guitar exco and failing it, restraining myself from getting too close to the people in SA. Even so, going for CIBTC, i've actually given up many othert things, not just the time i needed to dedicate to the course.Sure, i met many awesome people from all areas and stuff, but i think i threw away many other possible/impossible oppurtunities. I took up treasurer at the start of the year too, voluntarily, knowing that somehow i wasnt really a person who could do admin stuff well. Ah, im afraid that i cant take the self-created stress man, though im fully aware that all these stuff is created by myself.

Oh gosh, save me. Rescue me.

Its been a tiring week as usual, i mean i know im not the only one going through the whole motion instead of the process of school, like since everyone entered JC, most people i know more or less dread school

So i got back my results, which is ok, but i sorta feel discouraged cos i really thought i could do better. So far i got back everything except econs and got a DDEB. i mean if some miracle happens and my econs gets an A, i dont think it would make any difference either, cos the 3 H2 subjects are like terrible man. At first my E physics was a C, but after standardisation, it dropped 2 grades. Note, its standardisation, not moderation, means they rework and revise their marking schemes because of discrepancies here and there, then they just kill everyone of regardless whether or not your marks are high or low. Most of the time, no one's marks will get increased ): then for chem was one mark to a C and for math is half mark to a C. kinda sad though. CCEB would definitely be much nicer. But then again, drastic improvement for GP, or maybe the marker this time wasnt that strict so i got a B instead of a U again. Top in class too wooo lol, never top in class for anything before lol. so in all, results dropped from AASUA to DDEB and one more subject. boo to that ):

Service learning was today and sorta interacted with the kids from carecorner. i was attached to 2 kids who were cousins both of whom where malays. Both of them are really guai and quiet and they're secretly good in sports too. Like the sports games segment they sorta excelled as compared to other kids. it was a fun experience handling the kids, babysitting them for one day. Then after lunch i thought everyone would be drowzy and such, but instead all of them started running around the fitness corner treating everything there like a game station, even the feared pull-up bars. ok, once feared, not anymore (: but yeah, they're full of youth and errr vigour, real suitable word. then was water games, and somehow i got wet even when i tried to avoid contact with the water. boo to that. then played like floorball and touch rug with the kids, and i think my class is like gonna spam either one of those 2 games for PE from now on. Oh well, think its rather ok, perhaps basketball would be better >) oh yeah and i started this revolution of something really interesting. Because everyone has thrown their water bombs and all, then i havent threw mine, there was this kid begging me for my water bomb. so i gave it to him and asked him to do me a favour. At first i wanted him to throw it at one of my classmates, but one of my other classmates gave me a good idea and the whole class joined in the psycho to get him to throw the bomb at my form teacher. And then my form teacher who doesnt look like very sporty and those gentle gentle kind sprinted of immediately, amazingly lol.oh yeah and from the start, my 2 buddies had problems remembering my name, somehow 'Bryan' was a difficult word to pronounce/remember o.o So i asked them to give me a name and the boy called me 'Bigger'. Ok at least it sounds like bigger, it cant be 'Bugger' right. But yeah, the name was like er, cute.

After that joined like half of the squad to welcome tyt back after like 1 or 2 weeks and when she is going off tomorrow -.- oh well. anyway CCA activities can be resumed! yeah manzz woo. But i have no idea why i still have guitar when theres not supposed to be CCAs ._. and oh yeah , i found back my file too wooooo! it was put into the inno room when i left it outside last week, so its like since guitar practice in the inno room only resumed yesterday, i just found it yesterday. But then again, i lost my spec hooks somehow because i took it out when i was sleeping. Oh man, im always losing stuff.



Its been long since i read a book properly, like the whole book and i think i should get one soon to improve my vocab and stuff. Any reccommendations?

Ah, todays such a long day.

I got dismissed at 12.30 cos my classmates requested to shift my last period of physics earlier. So i had to stone/do my homework for 3 and a half hours until 4 for guitar. Sadly nanhua still hasnt implemented back cca i think, so i had no choice but to go for guitar. at least i didnt get niao like siao by the conductor, and i really learnt a lot from todays practice with jack on my left and timotheus on my right. Seriously man, i'll die without these 2 nanhua buddies in guitar ensemble.

Today marks the day where i lost something important to me. Nah not like what you're thinking lol. I lost my file which has stuck through thick and this, dirt and clean, rain or shine, peitongprimary or nanhuasecondary or 1sthalfofsajc with me. It wasnt just a file yo, i mean of course the stuff inside were important la, like my EOM article (inside zomgwtfbbqsibeisiandiao emoticon here), my only piano score, my only piano notes jingyew wrote for me in sec2. still got some other childish stuff. Like when i was playing neopets from way back, not that i stopped playing, but anyway when i was a maniac back that, i printed out like quite a lot of petpets and filed it into this blue file ): so yeah all my so called memories were gone like 'poof'. Sadded. But theres one thing cibtc taught me, its that to just look ahead despite setbacks, ok maybe you dont consider it as one, but you get my idea. gaaa ): The file was actually first bought as a choir file you know, where i get to file in all my scoresheets and stuff, but i slowly used it for almost everything because i was too lazy to buy a new one. 7 years ):

Oh yeah and the guitar resume was inside too ._. After i finally decided to take up yet another shot at leadership, my so called template was lost. wapiang, super suay day.

haizpo. Time to get a new file man. Lets see how long this file can last me.




I fought to the limit to stand on the edge
What if today is as good it gets?
Don't know where the future's headed
But nothing's gonna bring me down

Alrighty, term with new timetable starts tomorrow!

Past week after the June holidays have been filled with common tests, hopefully i'll be able to get 35< rank points so as to obtain a pass for this common tests. But for gp, i'll prefer a B or C cos well, i dont really like it when my english-related subjects gets low grades. ok maybe im asking for too much but just dont fail on me man gp, placing lotsa faith on the subject cos its like important for uni criteria or so i think.Then for the rest of the subjects, sigh man.BIG SIGH. i only managed to complete econs, which is rather ironic since econ is the subject where you have to scribble crazily. This could also mean a bad thing, that i had too little to write for econs to the extent that i could finish in time ):

Enough about common tests, i've been busy with my june holiday homework too. 12 newspaper articles and i havent started on EOM/journal. At least im done with 7 articles, hopefully i'll be able to finish the remaining 5 by this week as promised to my GP teacher.

The real term 3 starts tomorrow, and soon term 4 would be over and the A levels would be nothing but the past. Lets just get it done and over with man, seriously. The days are ahead are gonna get hectic with more and more workload, especially from PW. I gotta do weekend revision too, like last minute studying like what i did for common tests would not work, not that i had a choice anyway. I've sorta put down my hopes of trying to take up H3 physics, though i've got the interest for it, but i definitely cant qualify for it or take up the extra stress, i think. Kinda reminds me that it sucks to be in SA cos it doesnt offer the English Elective programme or some sort. Friends have told me its hard and all but i think im willing to put in the extra effort in something im interested in, as compared to boring econs.

On a sidenote, H1N1 is starting to piss me off too.i think all ccas in all schools have been banned? Means no guitar (yay, i suddenly dread guitar btw), but that also means no NP. argh. Then its like this friday is supposed to be college day but because of H1N1, they cancelled it and changed it to a normal school day cos the activities planned for college day is considered as a 'mass gathering'. And ATC's coming too, im so not gonna miss my first ATC as an instructor man. Its like a whole new experience, something i'll like to try. agrhhhhh.

Dinner with small group of sec4 friends at queestown area there, around RV. Some indian/thai food which costs a nuclear bomb. But it was a good experience though, love gatherings with old friends <3

Oh my god, thats so gay lol.