Happy Service Learning cum Racial Harmony Day.Since did my service learning on saturday already, i had a day off for the week and headed back to nanhua with some fellow saints and kjw cos it was NJ's college day too.

Headed back and visited many teachers, mdm poon, mdm yong, ms yvonne lim and lim pei shi etc etc. Since its racial harmony day, many teachers also dressed up in their traditional clothings thingy, like theres exceptionally more this year.Even mr teoh was in a malay costume! Unlike other teachers, he didnt change out of it after photo taking which was frigging cool. Maybe having a child would change everything in your life. Remember last time foo lao shi say when mr teoh first came into nanhua he didnt smile that much, then after he got married and had a kid, he began to smile more often. Coolio. And he still has that golden smile when he takes photos.

Played basketball pretty much of the time, sitting down to chat when im tired. Seeing the students have breaks in the canteen was kinda cool man. Nanhua has one of the funkiest canteen.Like seriously. E.g, the yongtaufoo stall is damn funny. It still gives so much noodles for the 五毛粗米粉. Ok i have no idea whether i wrote it correctly, but anyway they give so much noodles so much so i dont see how they can earn.And then theres also the famous western stall, where the name is nothing but a scam. It actully sells stuff like fan cai la, like la jiao yu, mushrooms cooked in a non-western way.Not that anyone's complaining, in fact, everyone loves it.

Left at like 3.30. Somehow i feel terrible after visiting nanhua. I dont know how i was arranging my thoughts and stuff, it somehow linked to how much stress i was creating for myself.Like im currently loathing tomorrow cos of guitar starting at like 5 and im dismissed at 1.30 like that? argh. Having left nanhua for 7 months, i still feel like i've left some stuff behind that i didnt manage to accomplish.Somehow. Results? Nah, cant be, i've got wonderful teachers who taught me in my last year and im really sure me getting 10-2 points was purely my fault for not clarifying things and stuff. Thats kinda a bit no link to my current link but somehow it all stacks up with all my other worries and piles up onto my emotions. I've made a lot of wrong decisions in my life, some i've definitely regretted, some i just cant seem to understand and others just, i dont know, left some kind of imprint on me displaced from any of the categories.

I've made a lot of major decisions too, risking common tests for cibtc, running for guitar exco and failing it, restraining myself from getting too close to the people in SA. Even so, going for CIBTC, i've actually given up many othert things, not just the time i needed to dedicate to the course.Sure, i met many awesome people from all areas and stuff, but i think i threw away many other possible/impossible oppurtunities. I took up treasurer at the start of the year too, voluntarily, knowing that somehow i wasnt really a person who could do admin stuff well. Ah, im afraid that i cant take the self-created stress man, though im fully aware that all these stuff is created by myself.

Oh gosh, save me. Rescue me.