Its my first book out after the 16 days of confinement, and i'll be going back in tomorrow at 5.30 after having booked out on thursday at 7.

It was a real test of mental strength rather than a test on my physical abilities during the confinement period, or transition period from civilian to soldier as SAF puts it. Of course i cried and broke down a few times, but at least im glad to say i think i've become stronger.

In the course of the 16 days, a lot of things hit me. Like how much the family really means to me. How much my friends really mean to me. But also how hard it was for me to make friends.

I came back a different person. Im tanner and more toned as others put it, but of course i myself dont notice it. Rachel and shaoan just walked past me in clementi mall just now and if i hadnt called out to them i'll probably be just another 'chao recruit' standing around a shopping centre.

BMT will be fast, after field camp everything will be much easier i guess, its just grenade throwing and situational test and poof its the fun week with inter-company games and recruit evening and stuff.

Oh and im collecting results on friday, which means hopefully i'll get to book out on thursday night. I dont want any AAA or AAB or whatever, but i just want a score that allowed me to get into FASS so i can study econs or linguistics which i really really want.

Hopefully i dont need to sign on.