surprise, joy, sorrow, disappointment, hope and last but not least, fury. threads of different emotions tightly knitted together in our shells, but nonetheless a tad different from each other.

its been long since i blogged, probably because i couldnt find the mood nor find the strength to blog, but i really wanted to 'pen' down my thoughts to like keep track of my life. so i was having GP lesson today, then we had to paraphrase 'ancient' in a summary thingy. then i suddenly remembered arthur actually taught us one word before, so i like searched my empty brain for THE word, and antediluvian struck me.

i was so pleased with myself lol, and quite surprised that my gp teacher sorta like fumbled a bit, but in the end he said my word didnt fit into the context, pity.

im also quite happy that i managed to find time to go back to nanhua yesterday, cos kjw's class had CIP there and just popped by to use some PE equipments. speaking of physical education, i realised my pull ups have dramatically improved with my 2-3 times a week weekly gym sessions. though i could always take my napfa anytime now, i requested to take my napfa in the latest possible date which is in august, cos its like a motivation for me to constantly work out and improve my physique.

so anyway hung around in school, and of course saw old teachers and met many juniors. hung around until the sun set, cos its been long since i experienced night in nanhua. its always wonderful to go back to the old school, though the feelings different, in a negative way of course. graphic scenes of memories flash back, and yes, i know i have definitely enjoyed my days in nhhs, and at least a majority of the rest of the cohort would have enjoyed theirs too. good times, good times. Alas, times have changed and we all lead different lives now

and argh i got back my econs and math test. both i got a 12/20 and a 13/20 i think. i thought i could ace math la, i mean, i definitely need to buck up on my math if i really wanna get an A for A levels. econs is really ._. i cant figure how the hell 'market failure' works, not that i really care in real life. i just wanna buy my goods and stuff man. best thing is, did you know in economics, did you know we actually assume the consumers (a.k.a us) know the concepts of economics, which in a way affects the way economics work, like demand and supply etc etc. bleah, boo to economics man :X i really would take triple science if i had a a choice, although its really a bit crazy.

i just received my PW groupings, and i must say im rather furious about the way they responded to it. note, its FURIOUS not angry. its like they in a way, forcfully made my teacher change the gorupings after she released it to us. I mean the reason for PW is for us to like learn how to work with people, research and stuff, but oh no they just wanna hang out with the people they are most comfortable with. then i sorta heard about some of the politics in the class that arose from these dumb PW groupings. gotta admit, the PW groupings somehow further broke up the class into even more distinct cliques. >:0 boo to that. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

was taking the train home from guitar today, and i saw this cute baby sitting like a few seats away from where i was standing. then the baby kept looking at me, either because i looked friendly, or i looked like i had distended parts hanging over on the wrong parts of my face or body OR it could be wondering why the school crest on my PE shirt has a tiger in it, although its from a singapore school. but anyway of course i noticed this youngling staring over at me, then i smiled at the baby. yes, i know its retarded, then the baby kept laughing lol. then he used the bolster to cover his eyes then look at me again, like playing the usual peek-a-boo game with me. gosh, what intellectual games our parents are teaching kids nowadays.

then it sorta reminded me of my own future, though its a bit no link, and my hopes. and no, it wasnt referring to me having kids in future, who knows, i may remain a bachelor for some strange reason. but actually what i should be aiming for and stuff. For example, i wanna learn my guitar properly man, i mean, its been like almost 3 months since i joined guitar and i still cant play pieces properly. i wanna be like fast-fingered jack, but of course that requires constant practice and stuff. i wanna skip all this plucking oldie thingy and instead jump to modern guitar music, more to the acoustic guitar and electric guitar side. i really like music from all guitars, but when you cant play it, its really a different story. it's like sometimes i really seriously feel like giving up and stuff.

and then it also reminds me of my A levels man. i really dont want to screw up and enter some lameass course. i heard As are really tough and totally different from o level standard. worse come to worse, maybe i would have to go to an overseas uni to study cos my standards cant make it for the local uni. then im kinda worried about being in SA man, its like the school hasnt really been producing good results for the past years. Gonna need all the help i can get from my friends man, if not i'll just be in deep shit.

i know, my posts are in fragments and stuff,that shows that i havent been organising my thoughts lately ):