oh yeah, was on hiatus for like quite some time >:0 been busy man.

so the last week was spent on lotsa tests, ok maybe not a lot. at least i have much lesser tests as compared to secondary school. cos like, i take so few subjects :D but then again, a levels are other so its still the same ._. think the worse i did was for physics, not because i didnt know, but because 0.2 somehow miraculously became 0.02 and i didnt have time to finish the paper plus check ): comon la, its only common test in a way, and they wanna kill us already. for math revision test, if nothing goes wrong, i should be able to be deducted of 4 marks. thats if my usual careless mistakes dont come back. and if my teacher read my question paper and spotted my pencil solutions for that 4 marks, i should be able to get full marks! but wth, gotta admit, ran out of time to transfer my stuff. oh chem was a killer too, because we were seriously deprived of time like £"($&"%*(& either that or i wrote too many statements and wasted my time. GP was ok, i think i should be able to get a higher pass. i mean if things go the way i think la, but you know the world just works in a weird way.

'nuff about MSAs, we learnt chords during last friday's practice! ok its rather stupid, i only learnt the G C A chord. i heard other schools' guitar start with chords, mine starts with the cute plucking ): so left school sharply at 6, but i still missed one train cos the train was too packed. met up with mum to change to my camping bag then headed to nanhua! met john, chao, roro and presley on the way. oh and xinyun too. everyone seems to be doing fine, so thats cool. reached nanhua around like 7+? and hoards of '08 people were there, maybe like 100? nah i think thats too many, possible though. but i didnt go to collect the certs with them. had nco camp! but of course, i couldnt resist a lil chit chatty sessions with my hommies. then the bunch of them went to have dinner outside D:

then it was NCO CAMP. rather awesome i think. cause it was organised by awesome people like us. nah, but overall i knew the campers did really enjoyed themselves. sunny and me went out at night to buy our CIs supper and we were put under god's test on whether we could make it back. ok inside joke, but i tell you, we ewnt through shit loads of trouble just to bring the food back to nanhua. when we went back they were doing campfire stuff, and its kinda cool to see the campers enjoying sir cheehoes lesson. like wth 2 years back, i tio tekan by him like f___. really lol, cos i was like the night ic, then cheehoe was like 'bryan, your cadets are moving too slowly!' then i really didnt know what to do, cos to me they were moving very fast. and well, i didnt really wanna shout at my own squadmates, im a good squadmate :D so i guess the problems with me lol. still got some other stuff i think. like when he said he wanted somewhere which was bright enough to conduct a lesson. so i thought that it was impractical to start a fire in the foyer because of the smoke so i sorta got confused again. arhhhh that was back in the past.

so we had 'supper', then i didnt really have the mood to sleep. watched slumdog millionaire for awhile before heading to the benches outside np room to sleep. woke up after feeling very uncomfortable cos i didnt bathe and went to bathe alone. walao damn scary la, i was so scared i only washed my hair with soap then immediately came out. nanhua is an eerie place D:

2nd day! joeshua lim finally arrived lol. cant really remember much, just that i was damn tired cos i slept for like only one hour the night before. then i gave my funky lecture on field cooking. my lesson must be so fun man, so much interaction! i think i have a bright future in teaching *_* but i dono why, i talked until i had like no voice, had to keep drinking water.

oh yeah and sir haris came down. he is like the most ultimate respected CI man, ok at least to me he is. when he was giving his lesson, the CIs were like sitting behind him and listening too, so interesting. but he used a different approach this time, back then he used the PASSION thingy, this time he used c.o.i.n. communication, organisation,influence and nurture. awesome. then yongtat said something that sir haris taught him back then when he was on his way to becoming an NCO. when you flip a coin and show a person, the person would either be seeing heads or tails. however, the side facing you would always be different from the side facing the person youre asking. so its something like barrier of communication, to what i understand. then after the whole nco camp, we went for dinner at sumo.

rushed home and headed to klin's for man u vs liverpool. ok i dont watch soccer, just that i wanted to meet up with the 205 guys. but it was a really entertaining game, i mean as compared to those games i see on channel 5 every friday lol. but was almost dozing off though, tiredness was setting in ): imma gettin old.

lets see whats up these days. oh yeah pool with ak chowler and kjw. funpo :D nothing much happened already. these 2 days i had to go back for lessons and then nothing more already. what a boring life i lead ):

going back to nanhua really feels great, especially when you see the people whom you've studied with for 4 years.it brings back memories of good and bad, but nonetheless fragments of what coloured and affected our lives for a long period. considering that we are normally ( for most people ) at ultimate puberty stage in secondary school, maybe these influences have even made us who we are now. as i've always asked myself since the start of the year, how is it i dont wish to mix around with my current class or keep in contact with my og mates? a lot of people have asked the same question to me but oh well i just shrugged it off. honestly because i really dont have an answer. i have no idea of what i am afraid of. is it because i keep telling myself i should not be in SA?maybe because i do not wish to put m ysecondary school friends to one side and move on with life? or is it because i was scared that i'll lose focus during A levels and screw up my a levels, like what i've done to my o levels. oh man :S

on a side note, i found this rather interesting quote on the internet.

There is no such word as 'loved'.Love has no past tense. If you ever stop loving someone, then you never truely loved them in the first place.

Cool right. kinda seems to be from the same category of 'its better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all'.

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