and here i am back to gripe about my life, not really sure whether thats the correct word but yea you get the idea.

you knwo sometimes, i really feel theres a need to realyl really sit down, and think really really think about all the stuff that you're doing now, and what will happen thereafter. i mean i bet most of us now are enjoying life, and seriously if you're not, SAD. but anyway the stuff we do now, im like repeating this, but do we realyl really think what will happen? i mean dam, i have to say alot of my actions are rash and i normally dont really care about the people around me, i mean not that i dont but i just couldnt be bothered. something must really really strike me if i were to like 'pay attention to someone else's actions'. but sadly that doesnt always happen.

so whats really the MAIN point of all these contemplations, all those think-before-you-leap actions like people always say. and then, i come back yet again to my dear old friend.


time.


hmmm time is, ok what is time. is it just numbers?are they so-called 'mini-common-sense' laws that people follow? or is it just an imaginary void, where we just tell ourselves, hey man its 12mn now get your ass in your bed those kind. man one should never deprecate the power of time. it has pretty much affected me the same as it has aaffected you. look at what time did to peter pan. he didnt grow up :o anyway, this may be a little no-link, to the little stuff i wrote on top but heck man im just pouring out my mind on this technologically-advanced diary, a blog.

anyway coming back to the topic on time screwing us all, yea time did screw us all before and will continue to screw us. ahhh time you nasty little bitch. anyway yea if you said im perfectly happy with time, you're definitely one of a kind i guess. i mean ok lets see for me, some stuff did happen which really really made me super pissed, i wont really elaborate on the not-so-nice stuff, but yea i will elaborate a few. i never got to finish some of my tests.didnt get to polish my boots. didnt get enough sleep.didnt finish my homework. didnt do this didnt do that blahblahblah. but the hell, im not the only one man. that is time. time is i mean, ok i dont know. time is.....time? come to think of it, look at how poorly we managed our good friend 'time' during ORD.

ok although all the bad things our dear friend time caused us. of course time really did help us in some ways. we got enough time to study.we had 'time to have a break'. and because we were born in 'in this time'. i got to meet crazy friends of 205, semi-retarded-yet-sane ones of 304, and man, i love the good parts of my life. but if we were consider my life as a box, the box would be feeled with happiness, but guess what, time drilled some holes in the box and the little happiness fluid is flowing out, draining me till im become an empty lifeless,hollow 'vessel'.

ok i know this post is abit senseless, but i gotta just say,




you came at the wrong time, and i wish that i would have the chance to fix it